Pisanggoreng & Mimpi (Wild Ones)

Just when I’m about to write my unfulfilled passion, I got overwhelmed by my melow-welow feeling, and the outcome is that “Losing” post. Gee, sometimes I wonder, how do I get here?

I never imagine I could be in this kind of thing.

Anyway, what I was about to write is, being this 20 something is tinkled my thoughts. I was thinking, I used to be that kind of bucket-list girl, with my wildest dreams ever.

But now, somehow, those passion is.. I wont call it dissapear, its more like, they’re swept away. But they’re still calling me, asking to be fulfilled.

I used to be a kind of woman, with huge dreams, huge expectations, and huge efforts to achive those.

But now, I don’t seem to be that-much-passionate person anymore. I have no idea what brought me into this. I want my passion back…!!

I remember once, about years ago, me and a pal wrote our before-25-bucket-list. As I checked them now, its not even close to be marked “achieved”.

I want it back, I want to travel, I want to do new things, I want to see the world, the whole world..!!!

Losing

Kuenyang.. abis makan indomie plus telor, yang terasa sangat nikmat berhubung perut sudah kerucuk-kerucuk sedari tadi.

Iseng-iseng berselancar di dunia maya, membuka situs-situs jejaring, baik yang baru maupun yang lama. Salah satu situs jejaring yang aku buka, yang dulu sempat sangat tenar dan digandrungi tua muda.

Seperti biasa, iseng-iseng melirik ke profil si dia. Dan melihat halaman yang berisi banyak peninggalan memori-memori masa lalunya, membuat pikiran melayang pada satu gambaran, dimana kami harus terpisah, dimana kami harus jauh, where we’re actually not meant to be.

And suddenly, this feeling got clashed. Feels like, “closh!”, I’m not sure if I can go through those.

The more I imagine it, the more hurt it feels.

Arrgh, I’m not ready for this.